I'm just venting, even if no one reads this it will atleast be clear off me. Another year and in the end I'm think I have maybe one friend. I'm not really sure what having friends is like or anything, I talk to them maybe once a month or so, about some random thing or another, talking about maybe hanging out but it never ends up happening. And now I'm just home alone again, it's maybe been a week or two since i've talked to someone other than someone of my family, which i'm not complaining about, i love my family, but sometimes its hard to tell whether they are hanging out with you because they feel obligated to as family or if they want to.